Catching a cheating husband

I don’t think I like being in denial anymore, thank god for that. After sometime of researching I found some very helpful info on catching a cheating husband. Although we aren’t yet married I hate to admit it but I think the answer to my question is yes. To think I considered him my future husband, and we aren’t even married yet and he is cheating on me!

I retook that test on oprah on cheating husbands, read this blog’s “catching a cheating husband” guide, and I think I am ready to proceed. I just don’t know what I would do in case he really IS cheating on me. I’ve known him for years and I would be so depressed if we had to split up. Is this something I should even be doing, trying to catch him cheating??

I’m in a mix of emotions right now, part of me just wants to quit, and part of me wants to hit him with a baseball bat, and another part of me is wanting to stick with him no matter what happens. I wonder if I’ll still feel the same way after I have caught him cheating. I need a plan but I can’t think. I have an attention span of a goldfish right now. One thought after another, I can’t even work anymore! How do I deal with this -_-

I’ve already read the guides, the personal stories, taken the quiz but I still can’t really push myself to do it. I want to so bad but I can’t. Ugh, I just want to stop feeling like sh!t. You think you know someone then they outright screw you like this, nothing has been proven yet but I’m almost certain that he is cheating on me.

I guess it’s time to actually put what I have researched into action, if not I’m going to be this bitchy forever, and I hate being bitchy and depressed. Ugh god I will kill you William if you really are cheating on me.

If anyone happens to drop by and see this and is in the same predicament as I am, I urge you to read the website I linked, more specifically this post on the blog “Signs of a cheating husband“.
The test I took from oprah’s website is on my previous post, it will give you an estimate and score based on the questions they ask related to a cheating husband. See that too for more details. I write down my progress once I have started.

Relationships are stressful

Who knew after more than a year of being together, it would all become as stressful as this.

I know I still love him, but that feeling I have that he is cheating on me isn’t fading away. He didn’t even get me anything this valentine’s day because he had to leave for something he refuses to tell me about. Sigh

While researching on relationships and cheating, I found an online quiz called “Is He Cheating Quiz” from Oprah.com. Click the link to take the test, it may end up getting you depressed :/

We aren’t married yet, but I did answer yes to number 12. He’s always out with nameless people.

Your total score is -7.
You’re on shaky ground; you should be aware. Begin to cultivate a home culture of kindness, calmness, and appreciation. Slow it down. Make each other the focus. Elminate the distractions that dilute intimacy. Have time for you so you can reenergize and develop your refreshed marital plan.

One caveat—regardless of your score, pay more attention to your risk factor if you checked ‘Strongly Agree’ to both questions 12 (I feel my husband has spent more time away from home over the last month or more) and 14 (I feel my husband has had diminished sexual activity with me over the last two months or more). These are strong indicators of a marriage in trouble.

Fighting before Valentine’s day

This sucks. Don’t I have the right to question you if I think you’re cheating on me?

-_-

I’m irritated and depressed at the same time. Doesn’t make a boyfriend look innocent when he gets all defensive and mad when I ask him about his loyalty to our relationship. I can tolerate him flirting with every girl he finds attractive, but when you stop telling me where you are AT NIGHT when I want to know where you are, you’re going to get confronted about that.

Now I really think my boyfriend is cheating on me. This is going to be a sad valentine’s day. I’m still going to give you that video game I know you’ve always wanted.

If I find out you’re cheating on me, you are going to be sooooo sorry. Your mom and dad are going to be the first to know, and your mom will be pissed because your dad cheated on her before too.
Like father like son, maybe I should just break up with you and find someone else that’s less dense than you. I could just be mad that’s why I’m saying this, but I could also just be opening my eyes right now, and you really are not right for me.

Oh dear, I’ve rambled on. This is very therapeutic. WordPress is great for venting

I really hope I don’t have a cheating boyfriend, that would mean if I get married to him I might have a cheating husband My paranoia is so high right now, I thought it was high last last week, but now it’s driving me insane.
Cheating boyfriend or not, I still love you

Shoes Shoes Shoes Shoes

If it’s still not clear. SHOES. I WANT SHOES

So valentine’s day is coming closer and closer, if you’re a guy and can’t think of a gift for your girlfriend or soon to be girlfriend, GET HER SHOEEEESSS. SHUUUUUUUUZZZZ.
Yes we love shoes. We will fight each other for shoes.

No I’m not wacko… but shoes make me crazy

I was reading some fashion blogs, and just stumbled upon a cute little fashion blog with a post about oxford shoes. I love them so much I think I’m going to get myself another pair as my valentine’s gift to myself. Maybe I love them so much because they were guy’s shoes that were made into women’s shoes. Tomboyish nature? Not sure about that, I just know I love love love shoes.

Maybe if I hint enough when my BF is over, he’ll buy them for me on valentine’s day heehee.

Still no idea about what to buy my boyfriend for valentine’s though. I know he’ll like the video game, but I guess I want something more special than that. A necklace perhaps, or a ring.

See ya,

Kim

Almost Valentine’s day

I wonder what I should get my boyfriend for valentine’s day.

I’m sure he would love video games. But I really want to buy him some new clothes. :/ I think I should just draw him something, and make him a card. I dunno.

It’s funny how much of a big deal valentine’s day is to me, when he probably will just get me a store bought card. This is so depressing.Although I’m probably still paranoid. Cheating is starting to pop in and out of my mind. Him cheating that is, I would never cheat on someone I love.

Back to the gift suggestions for my boyfriend.

First choice:

Fallout 3 he has been talking about this for a very long time now. He still doesn’t have it, and has stopped talking about it. I think it would be a nice surprise gift for him if I gave him fallout 3 for valentine’s day. I know it’s not romantic, but it would make him smile alot and would make him happy with me.

Second choice:

Draw him a card. I love drawing and I think he likes my drawings too. But he’d probably be more pleased with the fallout 3 game. sigh
Third choice:

Fallout 3 + the card? I’m clueless on what to give him.

If by some chance any GUY passes by (or girl) could you leave me some valentine’s gift suggestions?

Thanks. See ya,

Kim

Left 4 Dead

My Boyfriend is obsseeeesssed with this game. I’m starting to think I am too (I get nightmares though)

For those of you that do not know, Left 4 dead is a game in the PC where  4 people are stuck in the heart of the city. Not an ordinary city, a city infested with zombies. It started out as small infection like in the movie, 28 days later (which I LOVED..and it gave me nightmares too), then you have to fight your way to the rescue points. It’s pretty fun, even if they tease me cause I’m a girl. I am pretty kick ass “for a girl”.

This is the awesome (kinda scary) intro movie for Left 4 Dead:

The four characters are Louis, Zoey, Francis, and Bill.

Louis is the tall bald black guy.

Zoey is the kickass  girl. (My favorite!)

Francis is the big buff army guy, who my boyfriend says looks like Chuck Lidell (some boxer guy?).

Bill is the old cranky guy, that for some reason always dies first when I play haha. Oh Bill.

Oh dear, I hope I don’t sound too geeky. I love video games. I love them more when I get to play them with my friends. If you haven’t tried Left 4 Dead, YOU SHOULD!

There are two mode of play, the normal coop version and the VS mode.
The coop version is just like what you see in the video, you trying to escape the city. It’s good fun, that’s what I usually play. The VS mode is similar, but most of the special infected(zombies) are controlled by humans. It will be a 4 vs 4 (+ the computer zombies). It’s fun, but my boyfriend doesn’t like being on the same team when I play VS mode He says I’m too slow

Let me tell you about the “special infected” people..zombies..units. Let’s just call them “Special”

First and most common (AND REALLY SCARY) is the “Hunter”. The hunter is normal looking zombie that likes hoodies lol. He can move like the rest, but he is very very very very hard to shoot when the person playing him is good. They pounce on you and tear you apart. “They’re good in groups, but are weak when they attack alone.” is what Jim tells me, I just know they are scary.

The “Smoker”. He’s the one with a really long tongue and coughs alot. He’s the most gross infected there is. He’ll “snipe” you with his tongue. It will wrap around you. Then strangle and drag you to him where he’ll proceed to tear you up with his claws. Hurrah.

The “boomer”. It’s the fat exploding zombie. I don’t know why, but my boyfriend says this is the most powerful team guy. He dies in a few hits, explodes, and makes gross sounds. That’s all I know about this guy. Oh and he pukes at amazing range. Very Gross.

The TANK. H’e big. He’s mean. He’s very noisy. Not that scary looking though, just buff and noisy. He does throw huge blocks of concrete at you.

Well that’s it :<

I think I’m going to go play now hehe.
See ya,

Kim

Paranoid

I really do hope I am just paranoid.

I’m noticing how my boyfriend is changing, I’m afraid it’s because of something I have done. I don’t know why he is acting like this, or what I did, but I do know I do not like it one bit. It’s been almost two months and three days now and he’s still being weird

I hope I can change so he’d act normal again. Pretending to be all happy and bubbly all the time when I’m around him is difficult.

Ah well, at least it made me create this blog out of boredom/sadness.

If you read this blog, say hi! I’m here to make some new friends

Oh well, time to read some fashion/techy blogs.

See ya,

Kim